After reading the title to this post, you may be thinking “I can think of many reasons we’re glad you’re not too.”
Regardless, one reason I’m glad I’m not God is all the flack He catches when things don’t go well for us. Really, what that means is that it doesn’t go like we’d like it to. We question God’s love when tragedy strikes or mock His “plan” when we think we did everything right and we still don’t get what we wanted.
My topic isn’t the latter of those thoughts, but let me address it quickly by asking if you think God is Santa Claus? The American narcissism of a self-focused consumerism has infused itself to Christian cliches that strip all substance out of them and put the focus on our material and physical desires. We always want God to fix our material problems when He is concerned about our spiritual problem.
With that said, I think the questioning of God’s real love is something I am not sure how He bears – other than, well, He’s God and I’m not. The Bible dictionary I often use defines love (agapē) from God as:
God’s willful direction towards man; God doing what He knows is best, not necessarily what man desires.
Of course that first part about willful direction flies in the face of us who say “I couldn’t help it, I fell in love with them,” or “I fell out of love with them” and shows that God’s love is a willful decision to love. That is in contrast to our love which is usually based on approval of the person deserving it, us feeling a certain way towards them, and/or often how they make us feel.
The second part though is what is tough. Because the very definition of love is God doing what He knows is best which doesn’t always line up with what we want. Our minds seem so warped by the thought of “if you love me, you’ll do what I want,” and here God’s love doesn’t seem to take that much into consideration. Do you think man wanted God to send Jesus to die on a cross? Who would’ve thought of that? (Many people still don’t know how that helps them.) But God knew that was necessary on many levels to repair the relationship that was broken with “The Fall” of mankind, with the decision of Adam & Eve to disobey God, thus sinning and bringing something into their lives that God could not co-exist with.
Many actions you and I do are read by others in some variation in relation to your feeling of love towards them. It’s crazy sometimes and other times it makes sense. Although many of us will say we don’t care and others of us will say we do care, often our actions show that our love isn’t God-like. It isn’t unselfish. It doesn’t do what’s best for a person, regardless of what they want.
Usually we don’t want them to be mad at us. Usually we don’t want them to think we don’t love them. Usually we say we want to show them we care, but the truth is that we don’t want to deal with the expected backlash from doing what they need rather than what they necessarily desire.
We appease to show love. We give in. God never does. God loves no matter what, but He cannot budge from the light, the truth, the holiness and righteousness that radiate from His very nature to let some darkness coexist. As the saying goes, He loves you too much to let you live that way.
And how do we react? We question Him. We get mad at Him. We deny His goodness. We make judgment calls about God as if we can see the “big picture” above all circumstances, time, and emotions. We make ourselves God when it comes to how He “loves” us and we do not approve at times. We deny Him.
So one reason I’m glad I’m not God is because I couldn’t handle the indignant, proud, fist-clenched, self-important, all out rage that boils in the heart of a man or woman with an unappeased eye and heart, focused on themselves, when He does everything out of love. He flows love like a torrential downpour that never ends but we couldn’t care less. We don’t seek the rain, it seeks comfort, ease, and happiness – making those the reason for existence.
Self-fulfillment is often our end and we’ll usually justify and rationalize what we do to get there; while the glory of God is His. The disconnect has us unhappy, angry, bitter at God. But He’s still loving us. He’s still offering us to come to Him. He’s still offering fulfillment in Him, on His terms, where He is all we need to be fulfilled.
But I’m glad I’m not God because the hatred from so many for truly loving, is an unimaginable load to bear.